A Bad Day

Okay,

Today was a very annoyng day. First I had a doctor's appointment. Which went fine (i guess) then I thought we (me and a few of my syblings) would have a fun time going to disneyland. problem was, every time I tried to do something I thought was fun, My older brother and sister went kind of crazy. And I'm thinkin' "gee, maybe disneland wasn't the best place to go for their kind of fun."

So we went on a few rides and to the innoventions center where we looked at some pretty interesting technology stuff. But after a while I got separated from them and my cell phone battery went dead. After walking around a couple of times, looking for my siblings, I thought I'd go to the exit to see if I could find them. I couldn't.

So I felt very stranded, I went to a payphone and made a call to my parent's house to ask if they could call my sister's cell to find out where she was. I paid 1.55 for the call and 1.99 for using my debit card, ghads!! So I start taking on the answering machine and NO ONE ANSWERES!!!
SHIT
"Come on guy's I only got three minutes for this call."
It' doesn't work
So I make ANOTHER call
Bear in mind, I have no idea where my siblings are. For all I know I will be sitting by the innoventions exit till the park closes and I have to ask a cast member to "help my find my family" >:(

This time I call my mother's cell phone, and as I dial, I remember that she is working tonight
SHIT
Remarkably she answeres the phone
I start talking
She doesn't respond...She can't even hear what I'm saying!!!!
After repeating "hello, Is anyone there?" a few times, she hangs up. Not knowing that I am practicly screaming "YES MOM IT'S ME I CAN HEAR YOU. PLEEEASSSSSE" But to no avail
I'm despret now, I am not going to spend my time at disneyland next to a payphone.
So I try a different payphone and call mom again.

FINALY we are able to talk. I tell her my predicament and she helps.

Well, I'm glad that's over. Except, It isn't over. I still have to wait to see IF my siblings show up to collect me. I see them comming down from the innoventions center door. They were in there the whole time!!! Where the heck were they??


So I'm guessing they were pretty annoyed with me or else weren't paying attention because my two older siblings bearly even looked at me and didn't talk to me.

WHAT the freakn' heck is wrong with them? Why are they acting like MINDLESS ZOMBIES today??

We eventally went to see the parade, which turned out to be fun. Sarah and I got some candy from the store and we got to eat some (well sarah did, I wated till I got home)

As we left disneyland, my older sister reminds me and my little sister to bequiet around other people. thanx mom

What it's not like were trying to have fun or anything. Please, I have to work tomorrow, can't I have a day off to do something wild and crazy?? No, I guess not.

Why are they acting so weird? This is supposed to be a fun time.

I slept most of the way home.

At home I decided I had given my siblings enough greef, and to not go on the internet while they were playing W.O.W. (which required a considerable amount of self restraint.) instead, I worked on my project LOST: The "Clean Cut" Edition. Eventally Rachel offers to watch LOST with me in the living room. WHich I thought would be way fun. I pick out one of my favorite episodes that I think she might like because it's semi-romantic and involves my favorite character. after a while she comes out and we watch... throughtout the episode I pause it to explain what is happening because she just can't go with the flow and let the story tell her what's ahappening. (because in lost, the episode usually tells you enough to see what's going on) anyway My older brother comes in toward the end and starts watching. He has no idea the context of the story because he missed the first three quarters. So after the episode is over my older sister says what she always says about this show "It's too hard to understand."

I felt like saying "OF COURSE it was too hard to understand, you are WATCHING the MIDDLE of the SECOND season of a SERIAL DRAMA, You can't expect to understand every aspect of the show. And guess what you don't NEED to understand because eventually you will see a flashback that explains everything-you-need-to-know-about-the-entire-episode. i would even go as so far as to say that you SHOULDN'T understand it because then Lost would be a boring 'plain-crash-suriver-with--paranormal-activity' Story, which it isn't it's a Serial Drama and it's a GREAT Serial Drama."

Fortunately, instead of saying this I start to say something like: "it was good." and then I was going to contineue saying WHY I thought it was good( WHICH BY THE WAY IS BECAUSE IT SHOWS HURLEY AS A CHRACTER OF DEPTH INSTEAD OF JUST COMIC RELEF) when I am rudley interupted by my older brother who says "it wasn't, it was dumb."

Seriously , I lost all will to communicate right there. It was obious that he wouldn't care about my reasoning as to why I liked it. Although I would do that for his interests. For example...Even though I hate robots,I did ask them what the robot show was like and that kind of sparked my curoiosity in this robot that my siblings were apperently intersted in. I don't have an interest in playing W.O.W, infact i think it's kind of a districtive activity, but I do ask them about what's going on in the game and I like to learn about all the interesting things they can do while playing it.

I guess this particular event got to me so much because it is remenicient of my whole life. Every time I try to contribute something, or ANYTHING, to a discussion at church or work, I feel like my hand gets nipped at. My opinion never counts. So, I called him a rude name and walked out.

I guess I kind of regret that now.

I guess my interest in LOST isn't something I'll be able to share with my family. It king of sucks because I think it's really interesting and I see my own flaws in some of the characters, and I think they could enjoy that same kind of thing.

P.(M).S
I'm Sorry about the bad grammar and profanity, i'm Just so mad right now. I know that's not a good excuse but it's the only one I can think of right now.

maybe this will help me cool down.....